December 14, 2006 (night):
I had spent all afternoon at work in anguish, thinking of Richard possibly needing another open-heart surgery (he just had his second open-heart surgery THIS January, the first being in January of 2001), crying in the arms of the precious receptionist across the hall from us (also a sister in Christ); then I went and sobbed to my boss (I've worked for Greg over 10 years now, so he's like a brother to me); then I sobbed with Richard on the way home! It aggravates me no end when my human instincts take over, instead of me resting in the Lord, but I know He understands our humanity... He had human feelings Himself at one time, human anguish, human tears, and yes, He wept!
That night, as I lay in bed talking to the Lord and waiting for Richard to come to bed, the Spirit began filling my right hand. I'd never felt a filling quite like this one! It had the usual tingling heat, but this time, it began actually BEATING like a heart!!! And it lasted longer than most fillings... probably 5 minutes or so!!! I've never tried to heal anyone, but I couldn't help but think the "beating like a heart" was my hand being filled for healing, so when Richard lay down, I placed my right hand on his chest and said, "I heal you in the Name of Master Yahshua. Amen." I had nothing to lose, and everything to win! HalleluYAH for His lovingkindness!!!
Then Richard insisted that I lay my right hand on my forehead and pray He will remove my fear and worry, which I did... again, what can I lose???
Richard is planning to check himself into the hospital on Sunday afternoon, then we'll know more.