God, I know You have created me to need You. If only I could understand just how important it is to have You completely in my life. I simply need to rest my head on Your shoulder and for you to remove this weight, called grief. It is very heavy.

 

You offer a place to cry. You grant a patient ear for the grief expressed. You put Your arms around me as I tell You how much I miss the one You gave to me. You are such a merciful Father and friend.

 

All I have to do is say Your name, and You are there. No appointment has to be made. You are simply a God that is totally selfless in Your hopes and desires for not only myself, but for everyone.

 

You see, I have never experienced the loss of someone I loved so much. You have, and this is why I know You understand what I am going through.

 

You, Christ, know what it is to hurt, due to suffering so much excruciating pain. You felt it from head to toe. I can only imagine the conversations You had with Your Father, when You explained what pain is like and You both saw Linda suffer. Both of You have told each other what it is to experience a loss and to suffer horrible pain. This helps me to realize neither one of You are out of touch. You simply have a far higher purpose than I understand.

 

God, I know you have counted every tear I have shed for Linda and You also see the knife in my heart. You will remove it, but perhaps there are things I need to learn before the pain is eased. All I am asking is that You allow me to rest my head on Your shoulder and please accept my tears. It’s during a time like this that I really need You as my loving Father and friend. I simply won’t make it without You.