For
so many months I have been grieving for Linda. I have now
asked myself how I can take the grief and sadness I feel
and write about it in such a way that I can start to
heal. I love satire and so I have decided to write a
series making light of attitudes and perceptions I have
had of the future since Linda died. This is where some
of my greatest fears have been. I know what would make
Linda smile and I will write from a perspective of what
would bring a smile to her face if she could read what I
am going through. Of course events described will
be exaggerated, just as fears are. It will be
written as if I am 20-25 years in the future and I
describe the many misplaced hopes and downfalls of
growing old and how I am having a difficult time
finding a relationship in life. Everything
from phone conversations when trying to find a
date, to problems with eating out, from eating habits
since Linda is gone to daily routines that are
unbalanced.
If
a person grieving does not use the experience in a way
that will help to cope with so much sorrow, it will
be a part of life that can dash any hope of recovery. I
will still write about my personal feelings now, as well
as poetry, but I also want to start climbing out of this
personal hell by writing in a more lighthearted manner.
Everything must be within balance. Only now am I able to
consider doing this. I hope what I write will bring a
smile to your face. I don't mind poking fun of my fears
in a lighthearted way because so many have gotten the
best of me at times. It is now time I wage a war on
them.
Thanks
for the many notes of encouragement along the way as
well as prayer.
