Hello Sweetheart:

 

Last night I was totally exhausted. Jasmine and Azalia stayed Saturday night and it is the first time they have been here since you died. Jasmine told me that she “prays for meme each night” and she is glad that she “has been granted this”. Jasmine said that she cries for you at different times because she is “sad”

 

When taking the girls to different playgrounds yesterday, I had to watch from a distance on 4 different occasions because this is something we use to do together as a family. I cried many tears throughout the day and I couldn’t hold the tears any longer after I took the girls home.

 

I watched the movie NOTEBOOK last night. I was fine until the last two minutes. When both couples died together in the hospital bed it was the same size as the one in our house. I envied that fact that he died with her because I wish I could have died with you. I cried many tears when it ended.

 

This morning I walked up to your picture and repeated the words “I love you” over and over. I have cried a lot this morning. I just miss you. The reality of what has happened is really starting to hit me.

 

I plan to work on the flower garden in your memory later today. It’s a beautiful day to do the one thing that is like a tapestry of your memory. The meaning and color of each flower leads into another and the loose threads of why it is being built binds the memories I have of you.

 

How I miss you. I have so many thoughts of you constantly. My life will never be complete without you. I’ll always cherish the memories.